Gloomy Monday

I won’t pretend it’s ok, that it didn’t hurt me at all. Today, I had to change back to my home clothes after dressing up for a Christmas lunch I thought I was invited to. I wanted to tell my best friend but she was too sick for my same old rants. Aside from her, I can’t think of anyone to run to but this piece of paper.

Things have changed. Situations, moments, days, and many other things, they all have changed, even the people and my relationship with them. There are too many holes that needed to be filled in my life right now that these changes have carved. I’m impaired. I’m sad. And for the first time in my entire life, I’m not excited for Christmas.